I don't even know where to begin. Yesterday morning before I went to work I fed Boogie and he was lively and hungry as usual. I got off work around 4pm and my husband and I got home at the same time which is rare. We come in and I went to get Boogie from him box. I noticed he was acting a little sluggish. I gave him some water and he perked up a bit. Then maybe 10-15 minutes later I am holding him, he arcs his back in an exaggerated move and gasps. I grew up on a farm and have lived in a home that took care of elderly people. I have seen that kind of gasp on more than one occasion in my life and I knew exactly what it meant. I called out for my husband. He tried messaging Boogies chest hoping it would restart his little heart.
I called the specialist and he told me there was probably something wrong the whole time that we couldn't have know about. He said that is probably why the mother abandoned him in the first place. He said he knew I had done everything I could and these things just happen. He said Boogie wouldnt have lasted longer than 24 hours if I hadnt found him and took him in.

I know he was being honest, but it's still not very comforting. I feel like a failure. I couldn't bring myself to write about it last night. I spent most of the evening (after we buried him) curled in a ball on the bed. I can't believe he is gone. I was so sure he was gonna make it. I just knew we were gonna be setting him free in the next week or two. I haven't been this heartbroken since my grandmother died years ago. My husband and my friends keep telling me I gave him a good last week. I certainly hope so, but that stil doesn't make me feel any better. My house seems empty now and it was so weird not having to feed him this morning. I miss him soooo much!

I just wanted to let everyone who had been following his progress know. I really appreciate the many wonderful well wishes that you all had sent for Boogie. It is truely amazing to me how such a tiny little guy touched so many people. I know I learned a lot from him. I don't care how cheesy it sounds, Boogie changed me. I just hope he truely was happy with us this past week. He is missed.










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